The Loss of the Verlander Case

I had never felt so low. I was still struggling with my dad’s death which had occurred in the middle of the Verlander trial. There was the gut-wrenching hurt of loss, the feeling of guilt that I wasn’t there to hold his hand in the last moments, to assure him that it was all right to let go, that the family was strong, and we would take good care of mother.

Now, here I am, here in this bordertown of El Paso, in this cold, unforgiving courtroom, wondering if I failed as a lawyer in representing my client. I had just experienced the worst case loss of my career. The jury had just left, and I now must go explain a $1.3 million judgment to my client.

I write of the Verlander trial in my book:   The Ronnie Lee and Jackie Bancroft Spencer Morgan Story, a tale of people, greed, envy, manipulation — even crime.

 

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Glen Aaron is a retired trial attorney with a rich history in litigation and international business. He has maintained offices in Shenzhen, China, Panama City, Panama, Belize, Lebanon, and the United States, representing both American clients and clients from other countries.

1 Response to "The Loss of the Verlander Case"

  1. Jennifer Jordan says:

    Glen,
    I cannot imagine the great tension and distraction you were under in handling a case of that magnitude when your Father died and you were care-taking your Mother and other family members. Irrefutably, I know you regret not being with your Dad when he passed. Your Dad was and is still proud of your accomplishments. I’m sure he wouldn’t have wanted it any other way than for you to be where you were…in that courtroom. You won the case regardless because it was the best you could deliver. You can’t do better than that.
    I’m sure your guilt was immense in all directions at the time. The grief work is enormous. They don’t call it that for nothing. I hope that isn’t the case now.

    With the passage of time, events are temporal, feelings are temporal and love does not stop when your Father passed. It continues on….forever.

    I hope you are not continuing to live with regret, for he would not have wanted it to be that way. I am sure he is proud of his son. You were with him in Spirit. Some men wait to pass away when their children aren’t there. Others hold on and wait. Of course, I don’t know the facts. Either way, it makes no difference. It is something for you to think about. He may not have wanted you there! I have been with families many times when this happens.

    I’m sure you did your best for your client’s case considering the stressful conditions in your professional as well as losing your Father in your personal life.
    I’m sure it is unforgettable. In the healing process in which times controls grief, I hope you spend time on your last memory with him, something he said or did, or something that make you happy and smile…the special memories.

    I don’t know you, but. “online”……. I believe you have “uncommon valor”, exemplary, commendable, principled and solid core beliefs. Your Dad was and is proud of you. The love carries on. Visit his grave, write him a letter, stand in silence, a moment of meditation, …prayer. He is still with you.

    Jennifer

    I left a for a few hours when my Father died at 4AM. Although I’ll always regret it, I have found peace in knowing he wanted me at work taking care of the large urban public school setting. I was devastated at first. As time passed, I began to smile and think of the moments we last had to together. He was a former minor league and played a few pro games for the Sox and the St. Louis Cardinals. He said, “I would like to have some Kentucky Fried Chicken and a see a good baseball game. He was in the hospital that night. My Mother was a “rock”. I was a wimp. My Mom waited to call me at 7AM because she knew I would have come back to the hospital. We said our goodbyes. I’ll always regret not being there. I have forgiven myself, because so many poor, oppressed children needed me as well as my administration and running of my large public school building.

    You were doing the same thing. Although it was worse because you lost the case. I personally do not believe you lost the case. (only on paper while in court). Those clients knew that had the best attorney in the USA in their hands.

    I hope those last encounters with him brought you solace. Maybe you weren’t at your best, but your description of the case would have probably been lost anyway even if your Dad has not been ill. You may correct me if I’m wrong. I am writing in circumspect.

    I think you are heroic to carry such a weight as to believe you were equally responsible in trying this case while you were losing your Dad. YOU ARE HUMAN! These experiences only help us grow more steeped in our faith and perseverance.
    Even with grief and defeat there is always a benefit. I hope you’ve found it.
    Your sensitivity level and sense of personal responsibility is very admirable. This is a time when you say to yourself, “I loved my Father. I did my job. I lost both times, but my heart, soul and spirit was still morally intact.” Simply put, “You did the best you could.” Even in hindsight….the same can be said.
    Jennifer

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